Aimless...

Lets look back at the path in which I had traveled in the past 25 years. When I was some 3 years old, my dream was to be a school teacher. Then came the realization, Oh God we should talk in English to be a teacher. So I decided that its a difficult aim in my life. So the best thing I could do was to change the aim rather than to achieve it.

A few years passed by, then came the era of Cricket, then wanted to be a cricketer. I even tried it. In parallel, there was something happenning with my studies. The only paper in which I was scoring atleast bearable marks was Computer Science. I still remember those days when I used to sit and regret seeing the report card, and think Oh God why they are not including Computer Science marks to arrive at ranks. So there was also an ambition within me to become a Computer Engineer. With these aims being alive within me, I continued to live life.

My friend during that time used to put me off saying any body can become an Engineer but only a few can become a Chartered accountant. (Seriously didnt know wat was that).I used to laugh at him for having said that. Coz my belief was that Engineers are the best.

Then, came the time when I had chose a path., can you belive it, I chose Commerce with Computer Science. Dont really know why I chose it though.

Before this happenned, I even tried my hand with Cricket. Went for a coaching camp. Yeah wore all the arms and ammunitions needed for Cricket, walked to the pitch and stood there. The very glimpse of the pace bowler coming in and pitching the ball made me tremble. I hit the ball hard, but then it didnt even cross the 15 yard circle. Then ran and ran, it was like running a 100 m race for me to score a run. Then I decided, yeah to change the aim once again. No more I want to be a cricketer.

Yeah so my new aim now was to finish MCA and become a software Engineer. But guess wat I went to CA Foundation training institute and joined there. You know for wat, so that I can train myself in Statistics to get into MCA. How stupid can I think? Then came the D day when the exams came.I was performing very well in the classes there and also decent marks in Foundation. Cleared it! Oh Oh wat now...

Confusion caught me. In this confusion I chose the aim of Software engineer, went to NIIT even took their entrance exam, enrolled for GNIIT paid the fees.

Now, the next day had a talk with my uncle, ooops what was the result? Change of aim again. I decided to become a Chartered accountant...


Days went..Years went..I was maturing. (Thanks to SRS) then came the world of Functional consulting. The more I got to know of it. The more it was thrilling to me.

Incidentally completed Chartered accountancy...

Then became a functional consultant. Which was my aim!

But then was I happy with it? No. Then came systems audit.

Took it twice. Jus cundnt ace it. felt it was not for me. Decided to scrape the aim...

Incidentally I also became good with investing in shares..thanks to the ET, Business week, Money control, NDTV and etc of the world which helped me and helps me.

Finally wats my aim now? Really am I aimless now?

No..There are a few in mind and also heart..

But still there are a few changes in me. Till last year I was chasing my dreams working towards them, everything seemed achievable. But now I do not.

May be thats the reason am feeling empty and aimless..May be Distractions!

Will I get over them! Its Him and Time to answer! I should but!